I wonder why I feel so sad. Nothing big happened, nothing happened at all actually. I don’t’ know what it is that is bothering me from so long that I can’t seem to focus on anything that I am trying to do. I feel like the whole world is laughing at me with their finders pointed in my face for the irrelevance of my existence. What could have possibly hurt me so hard and so deep that I didn’t even realize. This is ridiculous, I don’t rely on anybody for anything yet when somebody says something it pulls out a part of me that I had forgotten existed. It cuts me deep. Real deep.
Writing it out isn’t helping either; I don’t know what to do to calm my inner storm. Its hard to get over things when you experience them after so long. Maybe I know the reason and I’m not willing to accept it. Perhaps this is the way of knowing oneself as they stress in the books “know what you want/know who you are”
I feel betrayed, left alone, threatened, empty and most of all, weak!
Anyways, back to my assignment! And sorry to post so late…
Love
Endless Hope 