It’s been long. Yes I admit I took the most time off doing other things rather then continuing writing my blog. But honestly, all these days I have been going through different phases of anguish. A mental state that is hard to explain. I wonder if God is really cruel? Or the trail He puts us through? Our mothers, on this very earth, seem way less cruel and punishing when they put us through anything, comparatively. Or at least it seems like it.
Perhaps this is the process of learning, accepting and moving on.
Anyway.
It’s a beautiful rainy day today and I managed to take some pictures from my balcony of the cloudy city. Though it was truly not the best photo shoot but I still managed to get some … Here goes:
I was watching the meeting of Amir Khan and Clinton with some people regarding better education. He mentioned something I have been telling everyone for so long. He said: we focus more on competition – who got what grade or whose better than the other – whereas it should be more about helping your friend and ending the race of “I am better”. These are my words that are, yet again, put out there by somebody who thinks like me (really what makes us all different?)
I have been a competition freak myself but never academically. I was more rebellious and intolerant when given a challenge at work, games, debates, anything but I kept my steady speed in studies. I never thought it was important to score a 99.9 if I scored a 99 in last grade/course but my teacher and my principle use to put me through it, with their sky rocketing expectations. Whereas, my family was more concerned about me beating my brother’s record of highest mark (which I did many times). It was all too fast paced and seemed fake: why am I out beating all the other people? Unwilling to support their weaknesses? And most importantly, misleading myself in believing that there aint nothing on the face of mother earth that I cant do.. mehh ask me now, I got a list here 
Its important to remain grounded, down to earth and warm hearted. Otherwise, your in for alota trouble, failures and “why me”.
Time for me to go. Gnite
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