I wonder why I have started experiencing every emotion and weather differently. Sometimes I feel like flying to the moon and back. I noticed I am changing, perhaps allowing myself to grow with acceptance of illusions. They say there is a time for everything and to me it sounds really true.
The night outside my window promises way more than darkness only. It assures commitment of being bound to a span designated for a fixed activity. From the stars in the sky, the lights on the road, and the trees in the park, loneliness seems to be at its peak. The sound of water in the swimming pool and the footsteps of people is building the loneliness even more. There are so many things that we don’t accept no matter how true they are. Sometimes delusion is satisfaction.
Our desires poison the soul. We hate, lust, greed, and gossip without really thinking why. I wonder why sometimes we use phrases like “variety is the spice of life” and many more to calm the inner soul’s pounding questions. Some people like to blame the body for every bad deed and some like to blame the soul, but the funny part is: people that blame either of these are the ones that give into their desires more than the rest of the world they are trying to fool with their absurdly retarded philosophies. ‘Keep it to yourself homie and get well soon’ I wish I could tell them all. It likes we are being led by a person who is himself blind.
They all seem ill to me, in desperate need of psychological counselling. This is why its important to analyze the philosophies of other people stacked up in the library before making them your own. Don’t be fooled!
Time for me to go and sleep. Gnite
Love
