Today was a great day. I got up at 10:29am and desperately felt the need to go out for a morning walk. It was the most beautiful and breathtaking morning that I have seen in quite sometime – nice, green and chilly. I walked and walked breathing in the fresh air until I realized I made 5 huge laps in only 15 minutes. As I looked around I only saw one woman in hijab walking in the same park. There was nobody else, not even one person except for a bunch of cars driving by real fast. The funny thing was, the woman was trying to keep up with my speed as if it was a competition or something but eventually she gave up and sat on the side bench. I ran and jumped and did things I been dying to do. I love being careless and enjoying myself to the max, its fun to be crazy at times.
Every time I inhaled the fresh air, I felt empty inside and I could feel myself craving for more oxygen. I thought I’d sit down for a little while before going home so I could easily allow my lungs to fill up but you never know what I am up to. As my 5ith lap ended I walked home straight, not really understanding why I am walking home and not sitting to look around a little more. By the time I reached home, I was only half way through debating myself for what I did. I decided to go out again during the day to make up for the sitting time, which I accomplished by staying out from 4 till it rained (6pm).
Sometimes, I wonder why it’s so hard to finish something. Like this book I got in front of me – by the way, it’s a great book! – I just can’t seem to find enough time to read it, knowing half my thoughts are written in it, but still ahhhhhhhhh! Okay promise, I will finish it by the end of this week.
I don’t know why but I really feel paranoid right now. I have so much to write and discuss but I been suffering this real bad headache since yesterday night, which is preventing me from doing anything or even being myself. I have become grumpy, angry, and ill tempered. I can’t seem to think straight or even act according to a situation.
Anyway.
I was talking to a friend of mine today who argued that ‘love is physical and that is all there is to it’. She recently watched some old Hollywood movie that only dealt with love in this manner and now she has her views straight – according to herself – and is pretty clear about the animal nature of men. I tried asking her question opposite to what she thought was correct. It left her dumbstruck for a few moments and she lashed back ‘why do you even care’. Honestly, whenever anybody says this to me, it almost makes me feel half gibberish. It’s a sign ‘don’t argue with me, I’m an idiot’. People make little things hard in trying to figure out the logic behind it. DUDE! Take it as it is. This would make more sense if you were a medical student, there are so many things that cant be explained to us and we have to, by hook or by crook, ACCEPT them as they are. As they say “memorize and then make concepts”
That’s it for today. I should get going now. Gnite
Love
